Monday, May 11, 2015
For far too many years, I have felt alone.
So, for many, many years, I was groping my way through my life, feeling blind to love. I knew what *I* felt, but I could not see that others felt that same way towards me. I did not know how to be a friend. I scared people away with my neediness one minute, and my walls and barriers the next.
Repeatedly, I asked for help.
Not in so many words, because that would be admitting that I was broken.
Rather, I tried to find a best friend.
ANYONE who would love me.
With the help of my husband and several amazing counselors, over the last few years I have started to actually feel loved by and connected to people around me, and by extension, I have actually begun to KNOW that I am loved by God. It is an amazing thing.
What I have learned in this process:
1. The need for a mother's love never ever goes away.
2. God has brought me a LONG long ways.
3. I still have a LOT more to learn.
4. Really learning about God's love is AMAZING. For that, I am eternally grateful.