This week has been hard for me.
I think that coming into it already overwelmed set me up for a not-so-great week.
I haven't gotten enough sleep all week long.
My house is a disaster. 
I spent all week catching up on the laundry.
I'm whiney.
I've been snippy with my children.
All I want to do is sleep for a week or two.
I realized this week that THIS is how I was for *3* long years, when I was working overnights at Walmart. I was tired. I was overwhelmed all the time. I was NOT a nice mom. I had to appologize to my kids. 
Over and over again. Because they deserve to have a mom who is THERE, with them, not yelling or snipping or angry with them all the time. So, I HAVE to get more sleep. And I don't know how that is going to happen.
At least I FINALLY found someone to work out with! We go to the gym twice a week, so far. Hopefully this will help me lose some of this weight that is creeping back up on me. AND, this should help me emotional health. I HOPE.
And this next week, I HAVE TO find a dentist, and an eye doctor. And a counselor.
Finding a new counselor scares me. Because I need someone to talk to NOW, and sorting through them to FIND the right one is time consuming, and emotionally wearing. I REALLY miss my last counselor...the one from Montana. The GIFT from God....I am sure I won't find another like him...but I can hope!
I think I am going to go take a nap until I have to get more kids up....
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Wouldn't it be great to really get to sleep for a week straight? I could certainly use it! My boys let me sleep in today....too bad its a school day and they ended up late because of their random act of kindness! Little snots!
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Oh, dear. I do hope you get the rest you need soon, and that your search for a counselor match is very short and successful.
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